actual effort

so, i'm back. yes, again. i'm thinking this time it might stick. we'll see. in the past couple of days, i've done the following: joined the character project, and critiqued my friend's new blog. and both of those things made me realize that maybe i miss blogging. and maybe i should try it again. so here i am.





updates? oh sure, i've got some.


not really.

i'm still in new york, still single, and still doing the same job i was doing. and i'm still chasing dreams and trying to figure out what the F to do with my life. i'm at a bit more of a breaking point than i was before. i looked a new job around christmas, and applied, and interviewed, and didn't get it. but i started the mental transition away from the life i currently have, and i liked it. i sort of got thrust into this new world, these new possibilities, and then got told, NOPE, GO BACK! and it was awful. i mean, good in the long run, because the job wasn't right for me, and would have been bad, but short term, it's highlighted a lot of glaring things that aren't good with what i'm doing now. so i'm working to change that.

i also spent a wonderful week in germany, with a wonderful program i love, and that was great for my soul. but it wasn't enough. i need more of that. so now, i'm trying to figure out exactly what that is. and i'm going in 2,784 different directions. so, i guess we'll see, won't we?

in the mean time, i've started to pick up on things that make me happy: blogging, running again, and doing more volunteer work. hopefully, these things will start to point to answers. or, i'll just wander my way blindly, until i smack into whatever it is i'm supposed to be doing with my life. whichever comes first. i'm hoping for answers though, because smacks in the face hurt, even if they're good for you.